Join for FREE | Take the Tour Lost Password?
[x]

deviantART

 
:icontaluria:

~Taluria

Near Lost Cause
Sign up to follow this artist's work
ProfileGalleryPrintsFavesJournal
About Me Member Procrastinator TaluriaFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
Needs Premium Membership Statistics 39 Deviations
365 Comments
2,725 Pageviews

Tired and trying not to sound self-pitying.

Thu Oct 15, 2009, 11:45 PM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: The rain on the windows.
I'm so sick of things... Sick of being sick. Sick of being tired. Sick of not wanting to complain because I'm not worth hearing. Sick of pain, both mental and physical. Sick of falling apart and having breakdowns in class. Sick of everyone having problems recently and having nothing to hold onto but eachother. Sick of things falling apart at the seams. I don't know what I want anymore. I barely feel like I know who I am. Some days I just want to run away and hide. Maybe things aren't so bad and I'm blowing things out of proportion due to the way my brain seems to be working recently. I hope so. I hope that this is all just

I want to help and I want to be helped. I want to make a difference. Any sort of impact on someone, preferably a positive one. I don't think I will, though. I'll just stagnate and fester... Maybe be bitter and angry. I think that's what it is, at least. I don't want to be...

I want to look on the bright side. To see the best in things... I want to see places and people as they should be, and see the good in them as they are. I want comfort and to comfort and I want to be content with myself and my situation. I want to stop focusing so much on myself... I don't know. I'm lost and need a direction, and no matter where I look, I can't seem to find it.

Most of all... I really want a hug right about now. Maybe it's the weather getting to me... Sorry.

8 Comments | Previous Journal Entries

deviantID

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Alabama
  • Interests: Life, liberty, and the pursuit of randomosity
  • Favourite movie: Anything not scary or overly explicit
  • Favourite band or musician: Too many...
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything but rap of hip-hop
  • Favourite artist: James C. Christensen
  • Favourite poet or writer: Sharon Shinn
  • Favourite photographer: Me ; )
  • Favourite style of art: Greyscale pencil
  • Operating System: Windows Something-or-other
  • MP3 player of choice: Creative Zen (which is currently broken...)
  • Shell of choice: Turtle
  • Favourite cartoon character: Too, too many!
  • Personal Quote: No one ever accused me of being completely sane!
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil, paper, broken scanner.

deviantART Community Board

[x]

Comments


:iconmystriven:
~mystriven Oct 6, 2009, 4:39:21 PM
Thanks for the Favorites. :)
:icontaluria:
~Taluria Oct 6, 2009, 8:18:13 PM
You deserve them. xD

--
I'd rather you hate me for everything I am than love me for a single thing I'm not.
:iconplexar37:
*plexar37 Oct 6, 2009, 3:34:25 AM
Thanks for the fav!
:icondarkbunny145:
*darkbunny145 Aug 6, 2009, 5:21:19 PM
Thank you for the fav, darlin. I feel I must also comment on how utterly wonderful your goggles are.

--
Go to the edge of the cliff and jump off. Build your wings on the way down. -- Ray Bradbury
:icontaluria:
~Taluria Aug 6, 2009, 5:26:18 PM
Aww, thanks! Sorry for not commenting. xD I was going through your gallery at a run.

As for the goggles, they're WWI motorcycle goggles. I got them at the local MP Surplus. :3

--
I'd rather you hate me for everything I am than love me for a single thing I'm not.
:icondarkbunny145:
*darkbunny145 Aug 6, 2009, 6:14:19 PM
Oh don't worry about it, I fav and run all the time! lol

Gah, everyone tells me to go to surplus stores and I always mean to go but it never fails, I'll see one and be in too much of a rush to go in. My wardrobe is in desperate need of a good pair of goggles (or two). And a hat (or two).

--
Go to the edge of the cliff and jump off. Build your wings on the way down. -- Ray Bradbury
:icontaluria:
~Taluria Aug 6, 2009, 8:17:52 PM
xD Yes. Thrift stores, garage sales, and surplus stores are my friends. I try to set aside money every month to shop at those sorts of things. And I need another hat, myself, preferably a bowler...

--
I'd rather you hate me for everything I am than love me for a single thing I'm not.
:icondarkbunny145:
*darkbunny145 Aug 6, 2009, 8:23:54 PM
Ah, thrift stores I can do. I hit up Goodwill every chance I get. Ohhh bowlers, those are grand. I was sorely tempted to buy one at Target that was really spiffy but I'd already splurged on a scarf and a few books. Le sigh. Oh the woes of being a student, your money is always so stretched between things you love.

--
Go to the edge of the cliff and jump off. Build your wings on the way down. -- Ray Bradbury
(1 Reply)
Previous Page12345...Next Page

Site Map